A nourishing course

my mind wanders

but never further than i want

for that

i think i would have to be better at letting go

of all this nothing that i’m still clinging to

and release to wander

knowing i may not come back

not ever
but for now i’m still not ready i’m still clinging to all this nothing, the nothing that binds my limbs and my thoughts around the things i believe i see before me, and my obsessions and my and my my my

but you know? 

i saw the door

at the end of the thread of my mind wanderings there was a precipice and to step through it all i had to do was release the thread, the way back to me, the me i still believe exist as i throw my arms around my my my

i’ve seen the door now and there’s no unseeing it

it was there in the big mess 

a big mess is
a nourishment that has no beginning and no end, where a laugh begins and even if it isn’t yours it feels like it comes from inside you, the same is true for tears, we hold it all together, it’s just a collective of silly creatures melting together, anyone can make one, and so we did~ 

it’s a game:
legend = yen dodo marijn daniel cee coco lou sara matilda tzuni felix
my my my mind wanders nourished by our laughter and tears
learn to let go
in a big mess